I need Peace of God

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7(NIV)

These verses comfort me right now.
We got some bad news a couple weeks ago–My dad’s cancer metastasized again; this time to three places on his skin. He has also been in chronic, excruciating pain for the past couple of weeks. I just can hardly believe what’s right in front of my eyes. I ask God to prepare my heart for what’s next. It’s hard enough to take in what all has happened the past two years– like my mom said, it feels like a nightmare. I can’t fully explain it. It’s like…hold on a minute..MY dad has cancer?! This can’t happen; this isn’t possible. Someone wake me up, someone please tell me this isn’t real. I have to put so much energy into holding tears back and pushing thoughts about the future out of my head. I don’t even want to write down those thoughts but you probably know exactly what they are. I remind myself that God says not to worry about tomorrow, but I think I ponder the future to try to prepare myself of what could happen. This cancer did not start out with a bad prognosis. As it has recurred several times now, the outlook keeps getting worse and just recently I’ve realized the scary truth. Life is not fair.

I want to so badly say 4 words:
God performed a miracle.

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