Valentine Yarn Wreath (Plus a Giveaway!)

This giveaway is now closed.  Congrats to Melissa!  But feel free to continue reading about making a yarn wreath!

Yesterday, I took my cousin Darah and her BF Micah to the local craft shop.  It’s a very random craft shop in a very small town owned by an older couple – and honestly, I have no idea how they stay in business around here.  BUT they have a huge variety and great prices.  My cousin absolutely LOVED it and she’s been a lot of art/craft shops.  I found exactly what I needed to make some more great projects.  I am on a crafting roll!!!

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Sick of being sick

I wrote a post yesterday, but didn’t publish it because it was very negative. So I’ll try to say it in a different way in this one/leave some thoughts out.

I’ve been kinda bummed for no reason. I’ll be happy one minute, and then sad the next. It’s very annoying. I’ve also been lacking motivation and energy. It doesn’t help that I’m sick though… maybe that is my main problem.
I am SO tired of coughing! It’s been like 5 days of coughing now and I’ve had enough. It wakes me up every night and I have to take more prescription cough medicine (the OTC stuff never works for me), drink hot tea, try a cough drop, and every other trick there is until I can get back to sleep. It has stuff in it that knocks me out…in other words, I’ve been sleeping A LOT (with lots of dreams, good ones until last night).
I can’t believe how FAST this week went by.. it blows my mind. Hopefully this next week will be better and I will feel better.

Unfair

I am going to vent my frustration, anger, hurt, sadness, and give you just merely a glimpse of my aching heart.

You know what isn’t fair?

That my dad only has only months to live, according to doctors, based on the rapid spreading and aggressive, untreatable cancer
That my dad never smoked or chewed tobacco in his life and got oral cancer
That my dad will barely see 50 years of life
That my mom will be a widow before she’s even 50
That my dad has to suffer each day with uncontrollable pain, the inability to eat or sleep comfortably, or to sum it all up.. has no quality of life
That my dad has suffered for the past two years
Cancer
That my dad weighs only 125 lbs and is 5’11” and can’t gain back the 50 lbs he has lost
That cancer is not yet curable and so many people have lost their lives from it
That my Grandparents have to see their youngest son pass before them
That my mom, after losing her sister & father to cancer, and almost her mother for other reasons, has to also lose her husband
Human suffering
That high school sweethearts, who actually are a rare, happy couple who have been together for 25+ years, have to be cheated of growing old together
That my future children will only know their Grandpa from pictures and stories
That my future wedding will not be what I dreamed of without my dad
That my brother will be lost without his dad to look up to
That my brother will not have his dad watching him walk across the stage at graduation
Heartache
That my family will never be the same without my dad
That my dad’s loved ones will always be missing a piece of our hearts
That I am cheated of my “college years” and am at home without my friends around
That I will feel guilty for ever being far from my mom when she’s alone
That tears fall frequently at my home
That prayers aren’t answered the way we want
That there is SO much suffering, pain, heartache, and disease in this world
That my future looks so depressing right now
That there aren’t any words to say

Life isn’t fair.
[God, please hear our prayers and heal my dad, both physically and spiritually. Give us enough strength and courage to face each day. Turn those “months” into “years” with a miracle. Don’t let us lose sight of You through all this, but to grow closer to You.]