Highlights of my week

Sometimes when I don’t blog for a while it means I have writer’s block. Other times, like this past week, it means I’m actually busy! It’s nice to be tired at night and want to go to bed. And not watch TV for a week. And not hide out in my room all day. And so on.


My Aunt Marcie arrived on Monday the 6th and we have been busy ever since! God called her here to help heal my Dad, as He has continually told Marcie that my Dad will be healed. So we are on a mission of healing in alternative ways, with God being in the center it all. We are going to blend and juice vegetables and fruits to add to his diet (carrot juice will be an everyday thing). In those juice concoctions, we will add wheat germ for protein and other nutrients. He is taking astragalus 2 x a day, which boosts the immune system. He is also taking Acidophilus to restore his natural microbiota. We are planning on switching cow milk to goat milk (if we can find some and work it out) and also add soy milk to his diet. One of the most important additions will soon be Noni juice. The main purpose of adding this to his diet is to kill the cancer, but there are many other benefits. Another thing we are doing is finding ways to heal his wounds/skin ulcers, which will start with an oil we put in it. No more talking about the end of life. He will be healed and restored. We have also been praying (had a group of people over for a prayer meeting yesterday) and using a spiritual healing called reiki. My other Aunt, Marla, has been here for a few days also. My Grandparents have come to our house three times this week. I’m telling ya, we have been BUSY and the week has flown by! Marcie will be leaving Tuesday (most likely), and then coming back sometime soon. But soon after her, my cousin Christy will be visiting for a few days. I love when people are here visiting! It’s a break from my lonely life.

My Aunt told me something that I so needed to hear this week and I’m almost positive it was God speaking through her to me. Without me even saying anything about anything, she said she understands the lonely situation I am in and I will be greatly blessed/rewarded someday for the sacrifice I am making to be with my family. I should’ve known that, but the loneliness blinds me sometimes. WOW is all I can say.

This was a great week to be busy because Ryan was away and as of last night we are re-united! Until he leaves again at the end of the week of course.

The other night I had a very vivid dream that I was having Ryan’s baby (HAHA), and I had to have a C-section. I was really scared, but it went great and I was so proud of myself! Can’t remember why I had to have a section, but probably because when I saw them measure the baby it was 28 inches long! Afterwards, all these people were around looking at the baby (Ryan had just arrived from camp, but had to leave the next day) and I felt kinda funny. I said I probably lost too much blood (I knew this from all the Discovery Health I watch) and so I got a blood transfusion. Pretty hardcore dream, huh?

I babysat last night for my cousin’s cousin’s kids! I know, it sounds confusing. I could also say, I babysat for my uncle’s (Aunt is blood related, Uncle isn’t) brother’s grandkids. Picture this: your aunt or uncle that married in to the family, so not your parents’ siblings, but their spouse…are you with me? Okay, so I’m talking about their family, which you probably don’t know because they aren’t your family.
Imagine going to their family reunion! I have actually, eight years ago, in South Carolina because I went to help out my cousin’s little girls. I remember meeting my cousin’s cousin, who was pregnant with twins, and funny because that’s who I babysat last night! Phew, that was confusing.

Oh AND I pretty much finished my to-do list from over a week ago. I got all that financial aid crap out of the way.. what a relief! Now if I can just get my grants back because when I revised my FAFSA I lost almost all of them. My EFC increased dramatically when I added our tax information– bummer. But that’s what the special circumstances form is for.. to take in account all the medical expenses.

Tomorrow night is the start of an 8 week session of Zumba! It is so fun and a major work out!

I’ll leave you with some pictures of one of our cats, Lucky, who decided to make herself comfortable in my dresser drawer.

MUST it be so complicated?

Formerly known as UMR, the school I attend recently chose a new name that has usage issues.


This is what I found on their website and I just had to laugh… They also told us this at registration day.


“Our name is Missouri University of Science and Technology, Missouri S&T or simply S&T. NEVER MST, MS&T, MUST, MoS&T or any other abbreviation. MST is acceptable in reference to mst.edu ONLY in email addresses and URLs.”

Honestly, part of the reason I don’t want to graduate from here is because I don’t want to say… “I graduated from the Missouri University of Science and Technology.” Being such a long name, that takes entirely too long to say!

I guess I shouldn’t complain too much since I am getting more than enough grants and scholarships to cover all my costs for at least the 2009-2010 year. That is almost hard to wrap my mind around!
I do realize how lucky I am for that, but I don’t think I can fully appreciate it in my situation. I have to pay the price of being lonely instead.
However, I am most concerned about jumping into a semester and then my situation with my Dad taking a major toll on me emotionally and therefore negatively affecting my academics. I’m actually signed up for Organic Chemistry for the Fall semester, but I think I am going to switch it for a different class. I predict that it will be my most challenging class so it probably would not be a good time to take it at this point. I know that it would take up so much of my time and add extra stress that I don’t need.
I guess I just have to take that chance of starting a new semester.
Such a tough situation and an extremely difficult time in my life in so many ways. I’m scared to say that I don’t even think the worst has come yet.
There’s simply not enough words to explain it and even if there were, only God could understand.

Celebrating my Dad

Today is not only the first day of summer, but it’s also a day to celebrate Dads! So I’d like to dedicate a post to my Dad in saying Happy Father’s Day! I love you Dad.

Moments after he became an official Dad on my Birth Day, 1988! (This was the picture I was wanting to scan in my Daddy’s Girl post.)


1990. Kisses for Dad.

…And then she quickly grew up, but she’s always be his first-born, one and only daughter, & pride and joy.



Dad, here is a prayer for you today. Would you say a prayer for him too?

Father God, I pray that you would heal my Dad from the inside out. Give us the miracle we’ve been praying for. I want my Dad back to himself; we all do. It may be a selfish prayer because it’s what we want, but You understand the longing of our hearts. You feel our pain and our aching hearts. Wrap your healing and loving arms around him each and everyday. Thank you for watching over him all this time; he is ultimately in your hands. Don’t let him forget that you are always by his side, on his side, full of love and compassion for him. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

50 years

Yesterday, May 21st, was my Dad’s 50th birthday!

Bittersweet for sure.
According to the doctors, that could very well be his last birthday.
According to my faith, he could be celebrating many more birthdays to come.

We had a surprise party for him! A couple from Montana whom he hasn’t seen in 19 years flew in and his high school friend from Kansas is here. A great friend in St. James also joined the party. It went really well! Thank you Lord that he felt good. To all of our surprise, my aunt and cousin showed up later on that night from California. We knew they were in town, but we didn’t know they’d stop by to say hi last night. Ironically, we were looking at old pictures and talking about them and they walked in! On Monday, my dad’s side of the family is getting together and we are going to pray over my dad. My Aunt is putting all of this together for him; she is a minister.
I am expecting my cousin to show up soon and we are going to hang out. Up until last night, we hadn’t seen each other since 2006!

Happy Birthday Dad! What a great day of celebrating another year of life that God gave him.