It’s less than a week until Thanksgiving and last night was the official start of my break. At MUST, we have a week off for Thanksgiving– perhaps because we don’t have a fall break. But I have it easy this semester (or at least the second half of it was) and have no classes on Wednesdays or Fridays…. so a break isn’t that big of a deal. It’s not much different than any other week since I only go to class 4 times a week and have minimal homework. I’m still at home. Mostly alone. However, I do get to spend at least part of it with Ryan mywonderfulbf Ray… he’ll be home on Tuesday night! We’ll get to spend some time together before he plays at Missouri State Youth Convention next weekend with John Tibbs.
Usually on Thanksgiving or around Thanksgiving time, my Mom and I would visit my Grandma in north Missouri. My Dad’s side of the family always gets together, but for some reason, we haven’t spent Thanksgiving with them for a long time. We usually do our own thing at home too. I do love Thanksgiving dinner! Dressing.. mmm
Again this year, we aren’t celebrating Thanksgiving with my Dad’s side of the family. But, it’s not a normal holiday. My Dad isn’t here and that changes everything. My Mom doesn’t like to cook anymore, so she certainly wouldn’t be cooking a Thanksgiving meal just for the three of us. Plus, my brother is never around here and my Mom and are are a little distant right now. So when she told me to spend Thanksgiving with Ryan’s family, I wasn’t really surprised. But there’s another part to it that she just told me last night. She’s been planning to go to the Lake on Wednesday and Thursday… with her “friend.” Her male friend. So she wanted to make sure I had something to do so I wouldn’t be left at home alone (how kind of her) before she informed me of this. And then the weekend after Thanksgiving, my Uncle and Grandma might come down here for a short visit.
I don’t like this.
This will be my first significant holiday away from my family. We’ll all be in different places: My Dad in Heaven. My Mom somewhere where she shouldn’t be. My Brother who knows where.
I’ll be with my boyfriend and his family for the first time on Thanksgiving. I am thankful I have him and the opportunity to spend time with him. Being able to spend time together is a real blessing when distance separates us more times than not.
However, the circumstances are less than ideal. I miss my family. Thanksgiving will never be the same. We’ll never be the same.
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What are your plans or traditions for Thanksgiving time? If you haven’t left a comment on my blog before, I’d love to hear from you too!
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